Spare of A Girl's Thoughts

"Life is not about finding our self, but how we create it" It's about a girl who is very fascinated about life, but yet hasn't got enough about it. She's kinda stuck between the reminiscent and the future all about but always looking forward to move on and wishing someday, neither force or vengeance would be able to restraint her from her very own freedom.

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

:: I'm Just a Human

Wish there were more than 24 hours a day...


Wish there were lesser assignments due ini two weeks....


Wish I had a super durable body and be okay with lack of sleep...


Wish I had a super hard concentration and willingness toward my uni stuffs...


Wish the lecturer would be kind enough to give us easy question for the test...


Wish this PMS would not kill me like it did before...I need my health more than before these days....


Wish reading favourite novels wasn't a guilt...


Wish I could manage my time better....


Please pardon my too-much-sighs

I wish I could be a more thankful human being...

Monday, August 29, 2005

:: The Guy's Naiveness [or Stupidness?]

Ever heard this before?

"Wow, she got a sexy body" or "Great ass!" or "Nice boobs!" which are apparently come from the mouth of the creature called GUYS aka MEN aka BOYS. Slightly, we look those guys as a pervert or something :p, but when we said that to those men, they would come up with this defensive statement to against us: "What did I do? Can't I just admire the beauty of God's creature?" [Responding to this question, God's creatures also include hyppos, pinapples and those birdies who did poo on your car! Now..are they such a beauty too?"]

At least they are signaling a good thing: they're straight...*sigh*

On another topic but yet still related, it's just hillarious to see this from a woman's perspective. In woman magazine issues *which we read religiously*, we are usually taught how to dress ourselves according to each body shape: pear shape or hourglass shape or triangle shape [the last one is for sarcastic purpose only :D]. Evenmore, even face is categorized by shapes: heart shape, round shape, oval shape, etc etc... It's important to identify these shapes cuz' there are dressing up standard rules that saying that some of us cannot wear hipster in a certain shape of body or skinny legs in certain types of body or short length jacket in a...whatever! The moral is: show your strengths and hide your weaknesses. And why we girls [almost] always look good? Cuz' we've been very loyal in following those rules so those weaknesses are kinda unnoticeable.

Then, what it has something to do with men?

Well, I always wonder if those guys do really know what are they talkin' about. Cuz' sometimes girls do some tricks to change their appearance, and most of the times they work almost perfect. I'm talking about high heels which can enhance height [of course] and those ass will look better when girls wear heels. Or the new hosiery also works wonder to ass,too. Now, if those guys see a girl with a sexy ass [that's what he said], what if she took off her heels or put down the hosiery? Or maybe a flawless look...what if after she removed all the make up?I'm not saying there are no girls out there who have naturally sexy body or flawless skin but hey nobody perfect.. Anyhoo...I could write some more but I think I would sound so 'a-perfect-in-everyway-girl', nahh, it's not what I'm trying to do here.

What I'm trying to do is to highlight girl's inner beauty. This feature has a long lasting and permanent effect, which wouldn't change by time or age. It's not similar with 8-hour-long-lasting-but-yet-temporary skin foundation, this one is never fails. Inner beauty would bring out happiness, peace,and love. I think this is what girls have to emphasize more than the outer look or appearance. I don't say one is more important than another, but balancing two would be perfect. What do you reckon?

Poor boys...aren't they? You think?

Friday, August 26, 2005

:: If it wasn't too early...then it was too late....

Remember the time when I was too early to come to uni? Yes, it was repeated again yesterday and again today...

Yesterday, I woke up late cuz' I couldn't manage to sleep well the nite before. I ended up waking up late and it was terrible cuz' the tutorial started at 10 am and I got a presentation to do. When I was running in hurry to the station, I just realized that I left my wallet at home. No ticket, no money, no student id...should I sell out my jaket I was wearing and those library books in front of Flinders st Station? Big no no.

Running back home is a thing that I couldn't refuse to do. And there I was, running back home as soon as I can to get my wallet.

I reached school at 10.20 am and I thought I would skip my class. I sms'ed my groupmate and said, "Hey, how was our presentation going?" No reply. I sent him twice. Still, no reply. Then I decided to go to the class and just surrender to God what's gonna happen to my group presentation. But while I was walking thru the building, why I couldn't see any of my groupmates or my tutor... I couldn't find them. And as you guess friends, I was too early and the class was supposed started at 11 am :D

Today...I woke up early. I know my class would start at 11 am. I woke up at 8 am, had myself prepared, make a breakfast and enjoying my breakfast while reading a novel. Then, decided to go at 9.55 with a confidence thought that I wouldn't be too early again to the class.

I arrived at school at 11 am and entered the building to look for my class. When I entered to the building I met my friends, well...uhmm...my tute friends. And we looked each other with those questioning eyes. Anyhow, to shorten the story, yes my class today was supposed to start at 10 am. And I was definetely late... *_*

Shits happen, e'y? And these are just some of them *sigh*

Wednesday, August 24, 2005

:: Unlucky Day

Tell you every single detail for today...only after 6 hours since I started my life today:

1. Wake up this morning at 8.30 am... I thought it's a huge late but I wasn't urged to be hurry. I got a class at 10 am so I'd be surely late. And after having breakkie and quick browsing, check out the clock again...its 9:47 am. Okay..I'm late. But...hang on...does my class suppose to start at 11? Yes...it is. Man..I was shock and okay...let's keep going...it means I'm gonna have enough time to come to class early [which is very rare].

2. The train...yup the train. It is late for 5 minutes due to delay. Nice. And because I woke up that early this morning, I ended up sleeping during my travel [yes, travelling] to school. Until, 1 more station left then I reaach my destination, but suddenly there was an annoucement saying, "Due to technical problem, this train will be terminated at Oakleigh Station. For all of you want to go to Pakenham please proceed to the next train which will come in 5 mins. [Is that really a technical problem or a bomb threat???]
3. I bought an egg tart today and was on the way to the lab computer. Until there was a guy said, "I think you dropped something" My eyes follow the way his index finger pointed to:...*gasp* my egg tart!!!!!!
4. I got this topic for my next posting..and after I typed it with all my heart, review it, edit and arrange the structure.....boom...it's gone! When I hit Publish button, it went to error page..and each alpahabet I've been typing it with all of my 10 fingers are forever gone. That stupid pc successfully pissed me off!
5. Calling someone for hundred times without answers... is really completes my unlucky day.
And I still have more than 10 hours to go and still have no clue what's gonna happen after this. Jeeezz....I am very pissed.

Monday, August 22, 2005

:: To Get Married or Not 2 Get Married [yet]? Part 1

First, there is no proposal until this very moment, so never think of an invitation for a wedding party! ;)

My friend once asked me about the topic: marriage [yes, marriage again!]. She asked about my plans, to be more precise: "marriage plan"; when I'm gonna getting married, how many years left to get over your single status, where the wedding will be held, how old are you when you wanna have kids, or even worse how many kids do you want? *taking a veeerrryyyy deeepppp breath*

The I answered, "I don't have any plans". Yes I do have a picture of dreams of how my wedding gonna be look like, or family and kids I want to have.. but a plan to make those dreams real....is still so far far far away... So, since i have no plan yet, let's just call it a dream. A dream that is most likely become true, and let's Him play his part :

Well, let me describe my dream looks like:

"I'm thinking to get married after age of 25. But it's not 26! Like 27 or 28, I guess. So..to get rid of my single status, it's gonna be about 5 or 6 years from now [again..this is a dream]". Then my friend surprisingly responded, "Why it takes you so longggg??" "Long? uhukk...uhuk..[if I didn't think of the woman's worst part: "ticking biological clock", I would get married at 30's!]" "Yes, it is long. If I were you, I will get married on 25 [that's the maximum]. Because what? It's because the woman's best pregnancy period is during her 20's. You know about fertility things right? If you got married at your 30's, it's gonna be harder to get pregnant." Seee..?!?!

Fine!

"But I'm the one who get married here...it's about my dreams. Not yours. Please gimme a freedom for my own dream, will ya?" "..." " I know about it. I understand the term of fertitility because I used to learn it when I was in high school." "So..." "So, I'll stick with my own dream..."

Well, to have kids in your 30's is not something impossible, I guess. May be it's much more tricky but what I reckon is: the more mature we are, the more we are capable to handle marriage or kids things. I have to admit that during 20's, I realize myself still trying to figure out who actually I am and what kind of person I am. I'm not that stable yet [emotionally, financially, and lotsa stuffs]. I change my own mind regularly, I think. I am such a puzzle, that's how I look at myself. I couldn't imagine how's my life gonna be If I was involved in a marriage on my current age...

To settle down first before we enter the marriage is necessary. And times needed for people to settle down is obviously different for each. Perhaps, we could never get somebody else thinking to have exactly same thinking like ours. Because simply, they do have their own dreams too, agree?


Sunday, August 21, 2005

:: Question of The Week

Why should I get everything that I want, instead of pursuing what I need?

It's been questioning my life for the past few days...

Until I reach this conclusion:
I'm learning to control myself as I realize that we would never get satisfied of anything when we could get everything. We will value things even more when we get things after the efforts. And I suggest myself to
work my ass off and appreciate things I deserve. That's what I would call: I got it!

Wish me a good luck!
*posting kali ini ga penting bgt yakkk...hehehe...

Thursday, August 18, 2005

:: Second Attraction

On one fine day:

Mr: "I saw a girl just now when I was walking here. She's quite pretty."
Miss: "Really...??? Then???"
Mr: "Well, I was sort of surprised, because the girl is actually....you."
Miss: "........"
Mr: "I think I'm somehow still attracted on you"
Miss: "I think you do" :)

Wednesday, August 17, 2005

:: What I am into Now...

I found a book. I know it's an old one but this book is very well recommended by most of reviewers from Amazon.com: Sushi for Beginners. Interesting title? It is. And does it have something to do with sushi? Well, I've just reached the first three chapters and still haven't found any sushi words in there. So let's see where it's gonna take me to the next few days. Hope it's gonna be great so I won't feel wasting time reading it.

And...the book I told you last time. This is it:


"He's Just Not That Into You" by Greg Behrendt and Liz Tuccillo.

My reviews: Five stars..two thumbs...great...well recommended for all single ladies in this world [well, non single can enjoy this too, of course]. Very girl empowering, fun, so truueee [even though I got some doubts about one of the chapters- but surely no worries about the other chapters], cute, girl power and anything related to feminism. It's so touchy and for me it was quite opening my eyes to drop when I read through all the letters in it. I was laughing, I was so surprised of some guys-big-secret facts. The bottomline is: I'm very proud to be a girl. No doubt! And you have to be bothered to read...hehehe.

My most favourite part of the book is quote from page 140:

I regretfully admit to having "disappeared" on a woman in my previous life as a single guy. A year later I saw this woman on the street, standing in front of a cafe. She looked stunning and was holding hands with a very handsome dude. I realised that I was of course ten millions mikes out of her head, and probably had been two minutes after I stopped calling her. Her life looked way more dignified than my behaviour.

What I've learned is: "there's nothing better in this world than living with a man for your whole life, who loves you, adores you, cares about you. But the most important thing is, he is really really really that into you...

Monday, August 15, 2005

:: A Letter for A Best Friend

Dearest Friend,

If I could only be there and stand by your side on this troubled times, I will.
I typed this letter, in concern of your personal relationship issues you've told me, which for me is quite terrifying and uneasy to bear. Hopefully, I could bring you some words of comfort therefore you know what to do and never regret every single decision you've made.

I know it won't be easy. Five years relationship must be based on a very strong foundation I supposed. You might feel comfortable to each other, you feel profound and you feel he is the only one who can always make you happy, laugh and dreaming. Yes, dreaming. He is your first love, and like every girl in this whole world hopes for, you want him to be the last. You must have put a huge trust on him, feeling profound and can't imagine that no other man in this world can ever replace his place. You are content. That's why I know it must be hard for you, when you found out that he is involved with another girl, who you never even know that she exists.

Dear friend, I will not ask you to dump him now. You have asked him not to dump you anyway. I know it sounds mean, but he was about to do that if you didn't cry and promised him to change yourself. So what I get here is: in his mind, his heart and his soul, he does have a feeling that he's no longer into you anymore. He did have a thought, even it's only a glance, for letting you go away from his life. Do you realize that?

It's hard, yes it is for sure. If I can only imagine if it was happened to me, I'm going to be very down and heart broken. I'm going into a very deep yet long night cry and going to go through the worst loneliness in my history of life. I am gonna have that big-blue-circle panda eyes. I am...it's not: I will! But listen, I'm going to have my own life back again, too. I want to be a strong girl, I am going to be just fine. I know it. Definetelly. I'm going to be faboulus and feeling so great just because I know, I am free from unhealthy relationship and let myself out from this arogance and selfish guy. I'm going to let myself enjoying my very own time without worrying about him and I am going to move on with my life. So are you!

Once again, please don't worry about my idea to dump your bf [even though that's what I am always trying to say]. But just recall this, you said he's done this three times ,now answer this: are you gonna spend your life worrying abouth the fourth? Are you gonna put your most precious time only for waiting him to break the ice between you? I wished he would change, seriously, but if he doesn't, I won't be surprised at all. Because man, won't usually changed by a relationship unless God Himself has given him a miracleous touch from heaven...hehe. One more chance will never be enough, you put yourself worthless if you do that again especially again and again.

Anyway, my dear girlfriend, it is up to you which decision you will make. It your own life, it's totally yours. So I really really trust on every decision you're gonna make. I hope you get my idea of really wanting you to deserve another better man. And please think about it. By the way, did I tell you that you are cute? You really got that catwalk model figure body and you're not bad at all [trying really hard to give you a hint that he really doesn't deserve you]. You are a gorgeous girl. Never forget that :)

My prayer always be with you. Do not ever waste anymore teardrops.Okay???

Love you,
xoxoxoxoxo

vVeen

:: The Best Way To Spend Weekend (when your boyfriend isn't around!)

I was recommended a book by someone. It does sound interesting. But before I feel sorry because I buy a not-worth-of-pennies-book, so I thought I had to give it a go. So, last weekend I decided to go to a bookstore in Melbourne Central. Yeah..it is a good place to kill your time and keep your eyes on books rather than new clothes.

Anyway...it was sort of really blissful, I guess. Even though I spent my time myself but still it was good. The bookstore has a cafe in it. Yesterday, I had some breads and a cup of flat white were quite made myself cozy. Grab the book, choose the most comfy sofa and have yourself a great time. Yeah, I think it's been a while since I did this kinda thing.

So, how about the book? Yeah...it's great. I bought it. I couldn't stop laughing myself there, so I just brought it home and have the fun all by myself [before someone else considering that I'm crazy]. I'll talk about the book later on, I am 10 pages away from finishing it so it will be soon.

Friday, August 12, 2005

:: Childish

Out of sudden, this thought come across my mind:
From so many people we know in this world, from so many relationships we've encountered with, might be with family, bf/gf, friends...there are some of them who might hate us. And as Asian background people, we usually taught not to show our dislike those the people we don't like. So, let's call it: hypocrite.

Tell me about Friendster, I assume you all know about it. For me, I would say Friendster is such a very good place to look for some people we knew in the past, like long lost friends. Anyway, we all know that Friendster got this Friends List which includes our friends we know [we might not know some though]. As well as the testimonials, an entry when people can share the testomonials, sharing what they think and their perspectives about us.

The funny thing is when some of people in our friend list turn out to hate us,I realise what they usually do is: First. they search upon our name, open it, check the testimonials they gave us before, then delete them [read: I've changed my mind about you! I hate you now :p]. Second, delete our name from their friend list [read: you're no longer my friend. Go away from my life]. Lastly, delete the MSN account in order to avoid anymore contact in the future [I won't talk to you anymore for the rest of my life, get lost!].

What do you reckon?

:: Highlight News From Last Week

1. Mike and I was cooking curry for lunch. I had to take a shower so I asked him to take care of the curry. While I was in the middle of showering, he thought the curry wasn't creammy enough, so he added some more milk before he realised the milk was expired on 30th June! *how that milk could stay in my fridge for that long, i don't know how* I decided to eat the curry *of course after he took off the milk from the curry and of course after we prayed hard on it ;) * Anyway, we were allrite until the next day, I had to went to toilet for more than 4 times. *notes: only ME* Aaaarrgghhhh...

2. Two weeks a go, Mike was introduced to this guy. Funnily, we think this guy is a gay cuz' he acts and talks to my bf like he is! I asked my bf to check him out if he had a gf, but he is too disgusted too bother. Haha.

3. Uni news: One my subject requires the students to have a presentation every week, including me and the groups. This week was my turn to speak and this local guy, one of my groupmate. You know what, I just prepared for my presentation 30 minutes before the class.
Oooppsss... But it sounds alrite I guess cuz' our team's work was considered as the best homework in the class *Go Fantastic Five!*

4. Four people I know are moving out from the old apartment and moving in to the new one. Plus, four people I know thru the blogs are also moving to a new url cuz' they bought a domain. Was this week a moving season or what?

5. Friendster allows everyone to upload photo up to 25! Yay! *Okay..unimportant yak???*

6. Melbourne weather wasn't really friendly these days, Especially last wednesday. Some suburbs got snow, I saw hail [ice rain] on my way from uni, raining and wet. It was freaking cold. Bbbrrrpppp...

7. After I reviewed all my posting these lately, I found out that topic called LOVE is considered too much. Why is that? Why love is such a biggg deaall?? But in fact, this topic is always hot amongst people in my age, 20 something years old :D

Anyway...this is Friday nite. Wishing a nice weekend everyone!


Thursday, August 11, 2005

:: Love or Hate?

Have you ever think that there is only a very thin line that separates love and hate? Once your love life has turned out to be a nightmare due to whatever reasons, love suddenly dissapears and hate comes itself uninvited. Have you ever think how could that be? The person you used to love the most and now becoming your first person on the list of people I-won't-talk-again-forever. If I think about it, it is so bizzare. How could that love and hate is so close to each other and they can come to your heart replacing itself one another...

I'm talking about finished relationship here. And I come up with this. People are divided into two: First, a person who will keep contact to their ex and still maintain good relationship with them. Second, a person who just get over it, meaning they won't look for their ex again, cuz' they just don't want to. I'm not talking about hate like they want to kill their ex or torture them (haha)...it's just the feeling.

I've met some of them. One of my good friends are into the first type. She even keeps updating each other and sometimes sharing their own love stories. The other type, they just want to get rid of the ex's, so they just forget wanna forget about it.

However,to go on with our lives to the next step ahead, we only need to walk and look forward. Yes, to rewind your life back again is important but yet sometimes it's too hurtful for somebody that they wish it was never there before. That's might be the reason for the later type of person. Too sad to be true though.

And so this Hate come out again itself, just like Love did before.

Wednesday, August 10, 2005

Finally!

Yay..finally, a new layout! Big thanks to okke, it's a very beautiful layout here, that's why i'm using it :) Anyway, I finally get rid of the previous white layout and has been working on it since last Monday. That's why there are some parts still can not work properly and I'm on the middle trying to figure them out.

Why I choose this layout??? Hmmm...actually, I've browsed around the net lookin' for nice, beautiful, and yet free templates. Found some though, but they're not really what I want. Till' I eventually found this :) Why this one? Well, I guess I would still consider PINK as the most gorgeous color, even though I wear green tops, yellow coat or orange havainas most of the time lately, but still deep inside my heart I'm a pink lover...hahaha. Let's say green is the new pink. Okay :)

Another thing is, the picture used by this layout is kinda cute, agree? Even me, my self never wear a bikini, at least it shows the girly side of me. I've been looking for something simple, and this is it. I'm not really into something complex and colorful, but I guess this layout that comes with some pink color levels is quite nice and doesn't hurt your eyes.

Well, I've also finally found the font I want. Pheew... I know it might be simple for somebody, but hey I'm just a novice in blogger stuffs anyway. Hehe. So please, any comments or feedbacks are more than welcome.

Have a nice day :)

Monday, August 08, 2005

PMS is THAT HURTS!

Responding to this posting of a friend of mine, I also got a story in a same topic: PMS [PreMenstrual Syndrome].
Only suffered by woman [yes, it is a suffering!], age from 10 till 50's years old and comes regularly on monthly basis.
Actually, this syndrome comes differently on every woman. Some of them feel sad, feel angry, feel anxious, depressed without a reason or craving for foods. The last one is interesting, ha? This syndrome does not actually arise during the period of menstruation, but it comes earlier. We can feel the pain in your hip and back areas [attention: the writter is a woman!], under the tummy, changes in behaviour, like more sensitive in some ways and very easily to get angry.

This month, I have passed my PMS. And it wasn't going really well. This syndrom has attacked me far far before it actually came. Until the time is come and that is the worst! The first and second day was the nightmares and it felt like very painful. I went to school with my hurt tummy. I usually do not eat breakfast properly, but that day I had my breakfast like I was having my lunch! That because I can't be hungry when PMS comes unless I wanted to have the worst PMS ever. But seriously, that breakfast on that day only help me a lil bit to stand till noon, until that pains came back to me. Aaargghh!

Unfortunately, I couldn't get home early because I've got this meeting with my groupmates. You know what??? They are all three guys! *Okay...no one to share this painful with...I'm pissed off!* Then till one of the guys realizing my pale face and suddenly asked me:

A: Vin, are you sick?
Me: Yeah..I got a very bad tummyache.
A: PMS?
Me: Yeah...*Smilling...shy*
A: First day? Second day? Third???
Me: Second day *Feeling it's-just-soo-weird-to-talk-about-this-with-a-guy, don't you know?*
A: Ah well, my ex was pretty much like you. Using PMS as the excuses...during PMS they got so sensitive..blah..blah..
Me: Excuse...you? You did say...EXCUSE???That's RUDE! You're MEAN. It is DAMN HURTS, do you know that??? NO, rite? Cuz' what? You never feel it...so NEVER say it is only an excuse! blah...blah...blahhh...

I know that I was so rude at that time *PMS, mind you!* But guys, do you know how we describe this feeling while we were enjoying our amazing PMS??? *please read in sarcastic way* Imagine this, will ya'?

1. It feels like your hip and waist have their own brain and they want to go whereever they like.
2. It feels like a 24 hours non stop $6000 massage machine is a must have.
3. It feels like your tummy is burnt.
4. It feels like everything turns so bad and it attracks my emotion.
5. It feels like hell. Hurts so bad. Want to cry. Tons of encouragements are needed.
6. And lying on bed for all day! Cuz' you feel totally weak with totally no strenght.

And below, I write some advices to handle your girlfriend during their PMS:
1. Please do offer her a lift, where ever she wants to go.
2. Please offer some massage even though you aren't a shiatsu expert.
3. Please be kindly patient. Yes, patience is important. Especially, after you know all these facts!
4. Please take her nasty words for granted, because PMS suffered girl may say something unacceptable.
5. A warm hug will do :)

Although it is hard, we girls have to go through this anyway... no girls can skip, no matter what.
There are times we girls do feel bad for what we've done during our PMS. So, never think that PMS is nothing because it is something for us! We wish we could manage our emotion during those days too, but sometimes when everything is out of control, we're losing it. We're totally going nuts! So once again...please, be kindly patient :)


Life...from my eyes:

When you think everything runs so smooth and nice, but the fact is our lives is so hard to run. We better just walk.

When every single of fact in your life that you think matters..but in fact it does not matter at all for others. And eventually, for ourselves.

When you realise that people that you consider as your best friends are not really your good friends. And realising that your other friends that you have neglected...are more precious than anything.

People are different. You might hate them for the differences.

This life is about nothing. Because people tend to say YES when it supossed to be NO, and say NO when it is YES.

Realising that being too close with someone is bad...taking a distance is much wiser but being alone is pathetic.

We always be someone for somebody...even at the time when we are lonely... We are meaningful for somebody, even when you think you are nobody.

Life is sooo complicated than you can tell, but if it's not... it is soo not called Life.

*Random thoughts by me....





Wednesday, August 03, 2005

Nail Bitting

I got this habit since I was a little girl in elementary school. I never allow my nail to grow longer because when it grows by 1mm and I'll bite it for 1.5mm. Haha. That's why I never buy a nail color or do manicure things.

This habit was started by this terrible experience happened to me. When I was 6 or 7 yo, I went to my friend's house and met her auntie there. Her auntie was very nice then she offered me to colour my nails like hers. Her nails were all red and because I was only a little girl at that time, off course I wanted to try! So she did my little nails. They were pretty but it turned scarry when I realized something later at night. I had to go to school on the next day and of course I couldn't go with those cherry red nails! My teacher would become so angry with me. So I cried. Yes I did. *was I really cute? grins* I cried so bad and I demanded my mom to remove those colors! Unfortunately, my mom doesn't have any nail colour, so off course she didn't have the remover. Then I tried so hard using the scissors try to remove them from my nail but I couldn't.

Then, finally my dad was pity on me. And late at night he drove me to my friend's house and got me nail remover. I stopped crying and was so relief when I saw my nails back to clear again. Since then I promised myself that I wouldn't do such a stupid thing again! Silly huh? Silly but it's true.

And I still have this habit until now. I will start bitting my nails especially when I get nervous. I'll bite my nails unconsciously even though it hurts. Now I get used to it. Even though it's bleeding I'll be fine. It numbs. And I'll do it again and again. Not to mention how many people keep telling me that it is not good for me and for my nail beauty sake, I keep stick with it. I see so many nail arts nowadays in magazines but still they don't change my mind.

I just think I won't be able to type properly on keyboard or writting fast with ten long nails. I also couldn't imagine how I would tap my tambourine without scratching the surface nor breaking my nails. It's just so not practical. I think. I also couldn't imagine myself looking and taking care of my polished nails while I'm washing the dishes or cleaning the kitchen. Oh dear...let just make this complicated life...simple!

Today I went to pharmacy to buy something until I saw this product on the shelves. The product is labelled, Stop and Grow. It says it will help you to get rid of nail bitting habit because it tastes terrible so you won't put those fingers on your lips again. Ha..interesting!

Now...should I try it...anyone???