:: i and God, last saturday

last saturday, i had this must-go schedule on my agenda started from 10 am. i had a prayer meeting at church. since i'm one of the workers at my local church so it's a compulsary to attend the meeting every month.

and the slacker me was trying to avoid that meeting cuz i was thinking to go to the library instead preparing my exam this tuesday. but...i didn't feel good about it. so, on friday night before i went to sleep i made an agreement with God. i said, "God, if you want me to go to the meeting, please wake me up tomorrow morning and i'll go. otherwise, i'll go to the library instead." it was around 12 am.

then i lied on my bed preparing to sleep. but after around 30 mins i still had my eyes opened wide. so another threat to God, "seriously God, if you want me to go then i need my sleep. i don't care how you do it, but please just make me fall asleep."

it didn't work.

fine! i woke up around 1 am and turned on my computer again. after some useless browsing then i finally decided to take an ultimate-hard-to-do-decision, i will clean up my room! then there i was, throwing those rubbish bag to the rubbish chute, sorted things out cuz' another donation day is coming, cleaning out tables, wardrobe, and finally finished at 2.30 am! *gasp*

i went straight to bed while sincerely doubting my capability to wake up early in the morning.

and whadayaknoww???

i woke up 'several-hours-later' and my immediate action was looking for my mobile phone. *okay, i don't have whatever-kind-of clock at my room. even an alarm clock. even that.* and i was checking out my mobile and taa daaa....it was 7.30 am! i was like...okay...this is a bit too early. so i tried to sleep again. but i guessed God reminded me of our agreement last night because at the end, i couldn't sleep. i woke up as fresh as the baby born who just has slept for 10 hours straight. I thought at that time God surely said: "seriously, I want you to go."

i guesses i just had to go. God won. and even though i lost, i didn't regret even a little that i went to the meeting that day. it was a good day. and so for the entire day.

God just always knows what the best for me. His blessings are sufficient, i will not lack of anything.